Finally it has happened. I have had something bubbling up inside of me for years now. Yes, years and I finally said it out loud today, “This is NOT the life I want!” Yup, that’s right. I believe now I have been terrified to admit this, terrified to admit the very life I created is NOT completely what I want. There are aspects yes, but I am not done and I will be damned if I leave this lifetime without creating and experiencing myself and my life fully and in exactly how I most deeply desire it.
I have been spending the better part of my life watching other peoples stories and wishing it was me. Well, no more! There is no reason I cannot have the life I want. I am the only one stopping me from experiencing it.
I can feel it now and it is palpable. So, while I have been pissed off at everyone asking what’s your 2019 goal, what do you want to create, I finally realized my disgruntle has come from my lack of acknowledging one thing. I. WANT. MORE!
I can feel this declaration is what has been wanting to explode from me for a very long time. When asked by a close friend what my next steps were to create this I immediately went into my overwhelm place. Then I quickly transitioned out of thinking about the do’s I needed to tackle to get and into the feeling of the desire itself and replied, “I am simply going to enjoy this feeling of knowing and follow it where it wants to take me. I took an expansive breath in and exhaled complete freedom and spaciousness.
I won’t leave this life without living it exactly how I want.
Do you know this experience? Are you living the life you want? Why not if you aren’t? If so what did it take to make it happened?